Monday, October 19, 2009

grumbling

dis may d effect of being alone with morning sickness for more than 24 hours....
or.....
maybe not.
well, it started when i saw an fb account af a so-called fren of mine who is now in scotland doing his degree.n i go wow reading his wall post.that post got my mind deserted from d real world.yes....since i read dat, it made me thinking a lot about my life.
almost 25 years of living...what have i achieve?
my teenage life wasn't dat great altough im surrounded by bestmates.
going here n forth from melaka - segamat - kl and back to melaka again was d only memory i had during 6 years of torturing my brain - if im allowed to say dat.being ask on why i got a back seat rather than with the others masa convo buat aku rasa...don belong.yer...0.01 mmg beri kesan yer.
so today...im a teacher.what kind of teacher?my english is getting worse...my grammar is still as bad as ever...i havent been anywhere for soul searching (more to vacation).yes...i need a vacation.i need to be sumwhere dgn tujuan bercuti...bukan mengikuti apa2 kursus atau yg berkaitan ngan kejer.i really need that!i want to do sumthing dat i want but i never know what i want...dats what my so-called fren used to say....i don really know myself and dats y im always lost doing what people tells me to do.
i donno why....is it d hormone or im facing middle life crisis?
future?
ntah....going to move to penang and thinking about it makes me homesick already.

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