Monday, October 27, 2008

only human

On the opposite coast of sadness is something called a smile
But before we can go there, is there something we're waiting for?
In order to chase our dreams, we can't have a reason to run away
We've got to go, to that far away summer's day
If we find it tomorrow, we can't sigh
Because like a boat that opposes the stream we have to walk straight on
In a place worn down by sadness something called a miracle is waiting
Yet we are still searching for the sunflower that grows at the end of spring
The warrior who awaits the morning light before he can clasp it with red nails,
his tears glitter and fall

Even if we've grown used to loneliness
only relying on the light of the moon
We have to fly away with featherless wing just go forward, just a little further
As the rainclouds break the wet streets sparkling
Although it brings only darkness
A powerful, powerful light helps push us to walk on

Sunday, October 26, 2008

wonderful gloomy day

how can gloomy day be wonderful...well becoz im on a road trip to Rompin dis morning n before we head our way, i read an article on mastika.its about how world is being unfair to fat people just because we r fat n not beautiful.it really catch me...not touches me.but caught me in deep tot about myself.lately i was distracted with dates.days gone by n not dat i don like it...im delightful n anxious but at the same time worried.all bride are beautiful n i wonder will i be d same?d beautiful bride that capture all the guest's eyes?!i don tink so....aman always reminded me of the word redha n thankful.not dat im not but sumtimes i just want to be part of the world.he also said dat we determined our own happiness not others but i always tot dat how can i be happy when people is treating me like fatness is a disease?well...come to tink of it, im ok.alhamdulillah...i don have dat much problem with my health juat because im not in the shape.juat pray for the best...



n what is wonderful about today is, i was doing all dis tot when i was on the road heading to tg gemok rompin to meet my dear fren cheno - on her day and ona!arrghhhh!i miss them...so much!its been so long since i last talk to them...

n i dedicated dis post to ceno...congrats dear.i know you can be a good wife one day.but please....choose other date than 1st may.u might miss my wedding.u have missed my engagement remember?!its gud to see u n ona again.to share the laugh and bad jokes again.hehe

here some pictures to share the joy with others



...me n ceno...








ona n ceno




ceno herself


im mad!

i can't sleep n i hate myself so much at the moment

YA ALLAH, KU MOHON AMPUN DARI MU ANDAI RINTIHAN KU SEPERTI AKU TIDAK BERSYUKUR DENGAN APA YANG TELAH KAU KURNIAKAN.TAPI AKU BENAR2 BERHARAP SUATU HARI NANTI AKU DAPAT JADI INSAN YG LEBIH BAIK LG...LEBIH BAIK DARI SEMAMALAM AGAR AKU DAPAT MENERIMA APA SAHAJA DUGAAN YG KABERIKAN DENGAN RASA SYUKUR DAN TABAH.SETIAP PENYAKIT ITU PENYEMBUH DOSA DAN AKU REDHA Y ALLAH KERANA MMG SELAMA INI TELAH BYK PERKARA YANG AKU LAKUKAN YANG TELAH MEMBAWA KEPADA KEMURKAAN MU. TP AKU PERCAYA BAHAWA KAU MASIH MENYAYANGI KU...KAU MASIH MAHU MEMBERI AKU PELUANG.AKU BERSYUKUR KERANA TELAH BYK DOA KU KAU MAKBULKAN.HAJAT KU KAU TUNAIKAN.AKU HARAP BENA YA ALLAH, KAU MAHUKAN KOTAKAN DOA KU YG SATU INI.HANYA PADA MU KU LETAK HARAP.AMIN....

Saturday, October 25, 2008

urrggh!

naper asik salah taip?cemerkap makes me hate myself....

im sorry kids..

i have finish marking d exam papers for all classes...
i donno if what i did is wrong...dat is marking according to he scheme as all the teacher said dat only i can save my pupils from failing.how can i help them if they wrote nonsense on the paper?!its obvious...i2 pon aku kasik sau pada budah dajah satu yg salin semula clue words for note expension tuh.but...still not gud enuf.they don understand a word.have i failed?i don tink so...

but fotunately, year 3 pupils did beyond my expectation.half of the class manage to write good an meaningfull sentences.god job dear!

i hope my year 1 pupils will developed their interest in learning n i really hope dat i can be a better teacher too.after reading fauzan's post on how learning was supposed to be fun, i can help bu to wonder.....am i dat kind of teacher?a teacher who makes learning as fun as main ting ting or congkak or such....sigh!

Friday, October 24, 2008

tag by Fauzan

1.How old are you?
~ i'm 24

2. Are you single?
~ happily engaged...thank you.

3. In what age do you think you’ll get married?
~ i hope n pray its gonna be 25.not more than dat pls

4. Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now??
~ insyaAllah. with all blessings

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
~ no idea

6. Do you want a garden/beach wedding, or the traditional wedding?
~ traditional + garden.haha..berangan.

7. Your ideal motif?
~ green i think..or gray wirh some black lace...or soft brown.maybe...

8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
~emmm.....tempat yg ada pantai.kalo dpt g zoo taiping je pon ok kot.haha!

9. How many guests do you think you’ll invite?
~emm...don have dat much frens.people barely know me.i donno..little.dats all i can say.
10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
~ simple one will do

11. Do you want the traditional vows or something you’d make up on your own??
~ emm....
12. How many layers of cake do you want to have?
~ 2 layer of ice-cream chocolate n vanilla cake

13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or at a simple place?
~ kat umah l abest..meriah.

14. When do you want to get married, evening or morning?
~ get married? evening..

15. You’d rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
~ outdoors indeed

16. Do you like a grand entrance for your groom?
~ emm...no need la.hehe
18. Name the song/tune you’d like played at your wedding??
~ ntah...

20. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
~ light.

21. What age do you want to get married?
~ dah jwb kan?

22. Describe your ideal husband/wife
~ someone like him...sgt penyabar...n tenang

23. Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
~ mkn pakai tgn pon bole...
24. champagne or red wine?
~none of the above

25. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
~ days afte...

26. Money or household item?
~ both..hehe

27. Who will pay for the bills?
~ us la....saper lg?

28. Are you ready for married life?
~ guess so

29. Do u think you will still be a virgin until u get married?
~ definately a yes...

30. Will u always be true to your wife/husband
~ insyaALLAH...I will

31. How many kids do u like?
~ 3-5
32. A new house for a newly wed or an old one?
~ baru la...

33. Will u celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding, or diamond wedding?
~ emm...

34. What kind of cuisine would u like for ur wedding?~
what define kenduri kawin kinds of food

35. Will u record ur honeymoon in a cd or dvd?
~ just picture

36.. Whose wedding plans would you like to know next???
Choose 6 person.
~ aesha
~ huda
~ zack
~ dida
~zatul
~shue

pls dead cat...go away!

dis happen yesterday...i have no time to post it earlier.

started my daily routine as usual yesterday.we left the house at 645 to SK Kampong Tengah.i was at the back seat, deep in tots when baba suddenly slow down said...oppps, xsempat.i tot it was the traffic lite n suddenly i heard a crack.it sounded like a car hit a papan n it breked.i looked out of the window n saw a cat!tergulung mcm tenggiling n it looked painful!sgt sakit...sgt sgt sakit!yg lebih menyayat hati ialah kucing tu mcm tgh...tgh..how can i say dis ekh?ttgh...menggelitik.sort of.dgn keadaan dier yg bergulung mcm tenggiling, i felt like crying n i almost cry of d tots dat maybe dia patah tulang belakang n went bergulung.argh!sakit!

n i could not let it out of me yesterday n today.n i guess d cat will stay for d week...sakitnyer!

dear cat....im sorry i could not safe u n i know baba tried.may you be in peace.

Monday, October 20, 2008

exam...

exam is tiring...yes!aku siap bwk buku cita tp xder masa tuk baca buku langsung.

1st paper - b.melayu
salin semula pon xdpt?haih...dats d fact.they spell klinik like dis - KELENEK!SUBHANALLAH...itu soklan bm yer.belum lagi bi.bleh la buat ayat mereka bermain guli menggunakan congkak!pening..

2nd paper - matematik
worst!budak dajah satu tanya macam mana nak buat dr soklan 1 sampai 20!they don read d q langsung.yes...d q is in english!total failure.tp dajah satu kan...budak2 baru kuar pemulihan plak tuh.lg la..caner nak jwb soklan bi nih!16 - 7 pon dier jwb sunday, monday etc.huih!

in a nutshell...mmg xdpt la depa jwb note expension aku nanti

Friday, October 17, 2008

wheel

baba bought a bicycle 2 years ago.i brought it to UIA when i was there n never been used ever since.its kinda bored being at home just watching tv aite?i borrowed pam basikal from the neighbour and start pumping the tyre...fuuuhhh!sweating already.

took a cycle around the neighbourhood....i love the breeze.kids were playing, birds were flying.xtau nak define tp i had a great evening.sgt nyaman n aman.

mak was next door.visiting our neighbour.yes...today is only about my neighbour.she was a teacher.its almost a year now- she was diagnosed with cancer early 2008.im not sure what kind of cancer.last ramadhan....mak cooked for her - sometimes la.when she's craving for stg. yesterday, the doc told her dat kemoterapi is useless now.she had been to kemo for quite some time now n pakar at pantai had refer her case to the general hospital juat to hear dat time is up for her.there is nothing dat anybody can do...subhanallah.

im so thankful dat i can still feel the breeze of the air n listen to the birds chirpping on the air.
i hope dat we can all pray for her, to enlighten her burden, so dat she wont suffer dat much.

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dis is a point to ponder...for anybody who read dis, bleh ke soklan note expension dkeluarkan untuk pelajar2 tahap satu?sila beri komen anda!

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

tag

tagged by aesha...nebes!hehe...

Every question is referring to 1 person.
En. Kamal

1. What is the relationship of you and him?
love of his life ...hehe.i hope so

2. Your 5 impressions towards him.
baik hati
penyayang
tp sgt pendiam
always know what to do
calm

3. The most memorable things he had done for you.
most eh....anta rombongan meminang kot.huuuu

4. The most memorable things he have said to you?
he does not want to loose me...

5. If he becomes your lover, you will...
love and treasure him

6. If he becomes your enemy, you will...
just forget about him i guess

7. If he becomes your lover, he has to improve on...
maybe he needs to be more mature sometimes.sbb dier suka tonton kartun n sometimes he just got carried away.pls eh abg...i love cartoon too tough

8. If he becomes your enemy, the reason is...
he choose to be with someone else

9. The most desirable thing to do on him is?
define desirable...hehe.

10The overall impression of him is...
he is a life saver...a soulmate

11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
isn't dis suppose to be bout dat person u choose to talk about?emm...how do people feel about me?frankly, i always tot they are not comfortable being around me.im no joker..i love to talk - empty talk dat is.am not beauty with brain...xsistematik n d list goes.

12. The character of you for yourself is?
im a paranoia...love talking to myself...easily got panic...but i always give my very best

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
sila rujuk soalan 13

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?
i can only think of myself as izan azahirah

15. For the people who care about and likes you, say something about them.
thanks for u concern n i like u too

16. Ten people to tag:
i don have any name thus dis is it eh...

APA ADA PADA PANGKAT?!

what is it about people with title?

one of my pupils was absent for 7 days.one of her friend said maybe she was sick but he saw her palying around their neighbourhood joyfully.well...i guess maybe sick was just excuses.today is her seventh day off and i ask the HEM shud i issue anything because non of her parents or family member - she has a bro in year 4, come to see me to explain her being and the HEM said, yes. issue warnng letter.

i went to see the guru besar for her signature...punggah fail dlm almari to file the school copy and suddenly HEM called me and said we have to cancel the letter because she was the YDP of the PTA's daughter.and the HEM said dis has happen several time.

whay don't they take any action just because she was somebody's daughter (anak pengerusi PIBG jer pon - kalo anak datuk ntah caner ah) n d fact that she has been doing it several time?
xphm...

N ONCE AGAIN, AKU XKENAL WHO'S MY SUPERIOR IS.HEHE.....

Monday, October 13, 2008

TAK PAYAH BERLAGAK LA!

so what if aku xtau nama KPPM?!its not like i cannot be a gud teacher kalo aku xkenal dier...i can still carry the national vision n mision.dis is the scenery...

i was so fresh up today...my stomach is aching.i donno if it is gastric or lapa...i cannot sleep coz its raining outside n i love rain!so..i started reading john grisham.need to finish reading it by tomorrow so i could return it to ain.while i was reading...my sister got back to pick up baba and made their move to kuala kangsar.i managed to catch her n ask for her wireless port.

i was browsing the net n decided to talk to few stranger.just a plain talk.everybody start asking x bosan ke dok umah xkejer.ok...i told them i work from 7 to 2 5 days a week.ttba...ader one kerek guy asking me about how does it feel bout being a teacher.FYI...masa ni lom start kerek lg.

soklan ni yg adala permulaan kekerekan dier..
awk kenal x KPPM?
so i was...kppm?aper tuh?kpm saye tau la.
ish...xkanla dah 3 bulan kejer cikgu awk xtau nama ketua pengarah apa ntah malaysia.pttnyer masa awk blaja awk dah tau dah.
aku pon dgn naive reply....kan.xptt kan keje tanpa tau saper oang atasan...hehe.
dier jwb....xptt!
so i ask...awk kejer mana? (he seems to be well verse pasal our salary rate - DG41 n temuduga n all the acronim)
kan sayer dah kater...awk xkenal saper kppm?
owh..kalo sayer xkenal saper kppm awk xleh jwb ah soklan sayer?awk ni saper?anak dier?anak sedara dier?atau anak sepu dier?2 pupu?
dier jwb...kalo sayer ckp pon awk xkan percaya.sayer dah amik IP address awk n rekod.

eh...dier ingat aku takut!hanya kerana aku xtau nama KPPM!
SENGAL GILER MAMAT NI!

felicity

i am soooo happy during weekends dats i wish monday will never come!hehe...

aman was here for raya visit and i finally have the opportunity to introduced him to my dearly frens. mak was busy with orders - alhamdulillah, walopon dah benti meniaga, ramai jugak oang dtg umah untuk tempahan makanan.especially for raya ni kan...maybe mak could think of opening a catering for minor jamuan and cook at home with minor complaints tough - our dapur is smaller than before.

can't wait for more great weekend!4 more weeks till school holidays!

owh...did u guys watch ayat2 cinta on tv3 last friday?i texted yana n ceno and they said its totally different from the book n dat made me feel like buying the book.but...it still teached me something.

1. poligami
its a well known fact that poligamy is not easy.adil n mampu bukan dukur dgn material ajer.mampu ker nak kongsi cinta n perasaan?walopon d first wife kata dier sanggup bermadu for the sake of the husband (in this story - to safe the husband from being sentenced to death) tp mesti ada rasa sedih bila tpaksa berkongsi.

2. jodoh
we always wish and pray dat Allah will grant us with a good jodoh.one dat always obey His order - semayang 5 waktu, hormat orang tua, hormat diri kita etc - a man dat can guide us on the right path.i bet all of you are familiar with LELAKI YANG BAIK UNTUK WANITA YANG BAIK AND VICE VERSA. dis is for u n me, untuk dpt jodoh yg baik perlula kita menilai diri.baik kah kita?n dats when redha came.bila kita telah dpertemukan dgn jodoh kita...terima la baik buruk dier instead of complaining n wish dier jadik org lain.


a reminder for me n you...

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

mono...

its been dys since my last post...life is monotanous nowadays.need more polyphonic tone.hehe...

last onday, i went to 1S...i ask the usual question.

me : ok class, what day is today?
pupils: monday!
me: can u spell monday for me?
pupils:M A N - MAN D A Y- DAY....MANDAY!
me: no,its monday - MONDAY!
amarul aiman:bukanla teacher kan manday, mestilah MAN bukan mon!

hish...how to explain?au terus ignore dier n continue my lesson.hehe...

when for my frens open house - SHE'S PREGNANT!more anak buah coming.she's like a sister to me and im happy for her.congrats eh ain!mesti anak ko comel like u n husband.

we'r all back to work n there's only me n mak n baba at home.did i mention they has stop their business?yeah..n there's basically nothig that they can do at home.i don noe..maybe out of boredom n tense, mak keeps staring at me with....no definition kind of look and commented everything that i do.i know...deep in her heart how she wish iam the black sheep.she keeps mentioning dat she was always woried about me going to kl rather than HER.no mak...i will never do something that will hurt u n baba.altough u barely called me when i was away...u guys are still close to my heart. i hate myself whenever we ended up quarelling over small matters because i pray hard everyday dat their sadness will go away.now im contributing plak...haih.

looking forward for weekend!

Friday, October 03, 2008

i can only get a car in FEB?dats looooong!ader x sesaper yg nak sewakan keta pd saya.huhu....

neway, i had a just nice RAYA.not good but ok...when to visit haira irdina in kluang and celebrating with new sister is great.

whats bad about raya dis year is....i cannot celebrate it with my frens.haih....sad
they r all busy with their new family.NO MORE DUIT RAYA FOR ME!obviously....

i love baking n i baked 4 types of cookies for raya.not much but bole la kan..i considered dat as improvements as our cookies only made by N*** all dis years.i know mom is proud of me.hehe...plus, i sew my own baju raya.

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

Eid Mubarak

im no longer HAPPY! my happy sim card is officially terminated..huhu.i forgot to check the expire date.my bad...cemerkap as always.i told a fren dat i'll always remember him as long as i have HAPPY with me.since its gone n he is gone too, i guess its time to let go aite?yes...n i have deleted YOU from my memory.WITH HONOUR!

its a busy day for me today..mom wake me up early in the morning to go to tHe market to buy ingredients for our raya menu.guess what?i met - well not actually met, i just saw him at the other side of the road. n i know he saw me too because he look at me with the you-owe-me kind of look.hehe...brings back old memories and its a stupid one...one dat i always wish to forget.

tomorrow is raya n baba treat us Mc'D today.yes...am enjoying every bite of it since the last time i tasted a nice burger was 3 monts ago.HEAVEN!there's only 5 of us dis season..bro is currently at his in law house.celebrating raya with new environment. hope i can cope next year.i'll captured every moment together with my family dis year...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL...MAY ALLAH BLESS US ALL.MAY WE MEET AGAIN WITH THE HOLY MONTH OF RAMADAN NEXT YEAR.

DIS IS FOR YOU...I HOPE YOU KNOW WHERE YOU ARE RITE NOW.IF YOU WISH TO FORGET US, WE WILL BE GLAD TO FORGET U TOO!