tefal to be won!

bismillah

first time nak join GA ni sbb hadiah best (idaman setiap suri rumahtangga)

check it out
http://umiyumi2.blogspot.com.au/2012/09/8th-giveaway-ga.html

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emm...ttba fb pon dah xleh buka di sekolah.youtube pon dia block...shut.dah la bergantung pd tenet sekolah je nak cari bahan ni.

argghhhhhhhhh.ni suma gara2 insan2 yang x puas hati dengan kerja cikgu ni.puas hati skang?

what do u want from us?!

jangan salahkan cikgu kalau anak xdapat faham ilmu yang diberi.
jangan salahkan cikgu kalau anak pandai tapi x berakal
jangan salahkan cikgu kalau anak berakal tapi x beradab.

maaf kerana sy seorang cikgu yang selalu dikecewakan anak murid mungkin kerana mereka punya ibu bapa seperti ini.

YA ALLAH...JAUHI DIRIKU DARI BERSIKAP TAKBUR DAN LINDUGI ANAK-ANAK KAMI AGAR MEREKA MEMBESAR DENGAN PEKERTI YANG MURNI.AMIN

ikhlas n sabar

sampai hari ni masih terkesan dengan tulisan cik yana ttg profesion perguruan yg dikatakan senang.

senang ke ekh jd cikgu ni?ntahlah...yg paling sedih bila dia kata guru2 sekarang ni lebih byk mengajar dr mendidik.sekali lagi, cikgu cikgi dipersalahakan atas kemerosotan nilai pendidikan n sosial negara.

i wont deny the fact that ader cikgu yang xberapa suka jd cikgu tp terpaksa maka anak murid la mangsa.tp...cikgu je ke yg buat keje xihklas ni ekh?kalo nak ukur keikhlasan seseorg tu, boleh juga sy kata cik yana menulis kerana dia ikhlas pd kerjanya sbb dia rasa keje yg dia buat tu sgt susah sampai ader masa dia nak pikir senangnya keje cikgu ni kan.

penah juga ader seorg kenalan yg ckp pd sy dulu...cikgu2 ni kalo xder pon xper.sbb benda yg diajar di sekolah skang ibu bapa kat rumah pon boleh ajar.sedih kan?sbb sememangnya tugas mendidik anak itu tugas ibu bapa di rumah.barulah ader kualiti anak yg dilahirkan.bukan salah cikgu kalau anak tu mudah nak kurang ajar.sbb cikgu pon terasa tempias budak2 kurang aja tu yerr.....

sy cuma mampu buat sehabis baik kerana sy tak nak anak2 mkn rezeki yang x halal n x berkat.sekian...

ps : masih kena relief cikgu yang sibuk bekerja dengan batu bata.haiah

the grass is always greener on the other side

i frequently feel bad about myself because i couldnt stop to compare my life to others.
walhal, i should n i do believe that Allah has fairly planed and atur hidup hamba2 dia dengan baik.

i really need to stop feeling jealous about others yg dpt sama2 tidurkan anak dengan suami, jalan2 bila ader kesempatan cuti, uruskan kewangan dengan baik, n sekarang sy mula membezekan anak2 orang dengan anak saya.risau bila tgk anak org dah pandai mcm2 tp anak kita biasa2 je.nama anak orang pon nampak n sound better dr anak kita.bleh?

gila kan?yes...its driving me nuts sampai kdg2 suami jd mangsa bila sy xdpt tahan sebak bila tgk dia.kesian dia...keje 12 jam sehari n kdg2 sampai seminggu bturut keje untuk isteri di ni yg asik merengek nak beli rumah.

n bila mula terasa nak iri hati je...teringat surah ar-rahman.nikmat ALLAH yang mana yg sedang sy dustakan?

ader ibu tunggal di sekolah sy sedang membesarkan 3 org anak seorg diri tanpa suami n kelurga.sy ader suami.walopon jarang ader di rumah, jarang dpt berbual tp ALLAH masih beri kesempatan pada sy untuk melayan suami bila dia cuti.

my significant others are still trying to get pregnant since 2008 n i have two. two perfect boy and girl.comel n bijak.pandai jaga ibu bila abah xder.n reason for me to smile everyday.subhanallah...nikmat paling besar.

semua ni dunia.pinjaman dr Allah.sikit ke byk....JANGAN LUPA BERSYUKUR.
YA ALLAH..AMPUNKANLAH DOSA2 KU YA ALLAH.PERMUDAHKANLAH BAGI SUAMI KU MENJALANKAN TANGGUNGJAWABNYA SEBAGAI SUAMI DAN AKU SEBAGAI ISTERI SERTA HAMBA KEPADA MU YA ALLAH.

3 ramadhan

im homesick.

although ramadhan is the month of ibadah, kekeluargaan pon salah satu elemen penting bulan remadhan.a happy family sits together during iftar n sahur, performing solat together.

its the third nite of ramadhan n im homesick.more than any other day because husband is on his night shift for the 3rd nite n for the next 2 days(hopefully).so..im alone at home.nasib baik blom dapat puasa so xder la terasa sgt kalo kena sahur n bebuka sorang2 kan.tp ttp sedih la sbb kemeriahan tu ttp xder.his night shift starts at 630 so kena btolak jam 5 dr rumah to avoid jam n he will reached home the next day at 9.T_T....

teringat suasana berbuka kat sgmt.im used to the noise n the silence in the house sometimes drive me nuts.bila senyap, rasa sunyi gila tp bila anak2 decide nak make some noise, they really go all out.hehe...

for now...just pray for kemudahan untuk suami supaya dia xperlu bekerja shift smapai 12jam lg in future..if dis is hard for me, it must be hard for him to.

n pray dat i'll get through dis with minimal to zero complaint.huhu

ramadhan mubarakah

saya

saya xder keistimewaan.buat kerja pon slow je..xcekap.
jd sy tau enaa org slalu pandang rendah pada saya.belajar pon takat pas2 je.x cemerlang pon.x heran lah kalo oang xpercaya ckp sy bila berbincang ttg sesuatu.

sy pon xtau apa istimewa sy.sy xpandai urus serba serbi, mudah marah lg.jd cikgu pon xpandai.file terabur, anak2 murid suma pon asik merah je markah.

haih...

SAYA FAHAM KENAPA ORAND KELILING SAYA PANDANG REMEH PADA SAYA.

celebrations

byk benda yg BOLEH dcelebratekan bulan ni.tp kami hanya tsenyum sesama sendiri bila teringat tentang tarikh2 ini

29 april 2012 - adam is 2
1 mei 2012 - hari buruh(hari cuti) and our 3rd year anni
13 mei 2012 - hari ibu
16 mei - hari guru

esok mcm nak pg sek.mencari alasan utk release ketegagan.bleh?

matlamat

i can't sleep.sbb adam kena gigit seekor nyamuk jahat membuatkan dia menangis.FYI..dia menangis menjerit.adik pon tjaga.huhu

so...i read an article entitled perancangan menjadi isteri n matlamat kita sebagai wanita muslimah atau isteri solehah la kan.yg initially dapat menyumbang kepada kemajuan ummah.

terus tfikir apa matlamat sy?
from primary, secondary n of course tertiary i always know im gonna or might be ateacher although i love to say that ONE DAY IM GONNA BE A DOCTOR.turns out im not good enough to be a doctor.im a mediacore. x cemerlang tp juga x gagal.
n now yes...im a teacher.i love teaching but i still - not to say fail but not yet touch anybody's heart.a great teacher could do that.maybe when i can control my temper better..i would be one too.

but what else?im not yet succeed as a murabbi...
belum juga cemerlang sebagau isteri kerana sy masih rasa perkahwinan kami masih baru.kami blom dpt selesaikan masalah komunikasi antara kami.n dat is major sbb kurang komunikasi menyebabkan kami kurang merancang masa depan.for now, we are going with the flow.masa depan meaning...rumah, financial etc.
we are facing financial difficulty now n not sure about 3 years from now apatah lg 20 thn akan datang.

again...apa matlamat sy?khasnya sbg muslim...
sy pernah dgr seorg pengacara tv Alhijrah kata - orang yg selalu mengeluh kebosanan ni, xder matlamat -
bleh dkatakan sy menjalani hidup by day.tp mengharungi hari dengan menanti apa yg akan blaku pd hari tsebut.bkn merancang...jd dah gagal mencari matlamat dsitukan?mcm mana dengan masa depan?masa depan sy sendiri?nak sambung blaja ke?terus jd guru biasa ke?then...what about anak2?haih...nak kata nak amik one step at a time, rasa mcm masa dah suntuk sgt dah.dek kerana gagal merancnag matlamat...byk yg telah sy bazirkan.

cranky ain

haih...mind u.i have to start this entry with a sigh coz from 5 dis afternoon until this moment ain is still 'resah - xtentu-hala'
how eh?

im handling my newborn like i never have the experience.i feel like crying all the time n i lose my temper easily.n if i do...i tend to ignore her crying n shut down for a few sec.i noe its bad.i sound like an unfit mother but...ok there is no but coz yeah, baby cries.adam does not1i mean...he cried but not a lot like ain.adam was one calm baby.he woke up with a beautiful smile n he usually play on his own.

i know it unfair for me to differentiate both of them.it proves that no baby is alike.n i don have the experience handling cranky baby.n i donno how to explain to the babysitter that going to look after her when i go to work which is in less than 4 weeks.she doesnt have a routine.she refuse to obey to any routine!books always tells u dat parents are the one who should set routine for their baby...but if they don want to follow routine?but wait...she has routine!cry dat is.huhu

mood : numb!

sbb?

i promise myself - walau apa pon jd, ain xkan dberi puting.tp dah bg.cumanya...she rejected it n cry louder sometimes.

a mother of two!

im back in jawi.has been 2 weeks really n i can't believe how time flies.

it is not easy to take care n manage 2 babies alone.huhu...n since we got here, ain has turn into a cranky lil girl.she cries, sometimes for no reason (or i can't identified the reason).she barely sleeps during the day but she refuse to just lay on the mattress.unlike her bro..well, no baby is d same aite.so..im still figuring her.n maybe she does too.hehe..its ok.just make sure u grow up healthy mummy's precious!n dat include u Adam.

adam is still in denial.still asking 'who is dat baby?why is she on mummy's lap?dat's my spot!'
he cries when ain does.n cling on me whenever possible(when ain is asleep that is).so...he finds it hard to take his afternoon nap but luckily both throws their tantrums during d day n soundly asleep during the night.

so...i only manage to do house chores during the night or maybe early morning where things are more at ease sbb both of them wakes up a little late kan.i don like the tense..but im coping.hopefully...insyaAllah.as im typing this, there are two basket of laundry waiting to be fold n keep.mothers...how did u do it?!

n..i can't think about jalan2 or window shopping or even eating out.can't n won't put the blame on the babies.sementara nak tunggu ain adjust, apa salahnya ibu n abah spend more time together at home kan?maybe that way we can work on our communication skills.

muahxxxsss to my babies.ibu loves u so much!

SKKT

SKKT stands for Sek Kebangsaan Kg.Tengah.

tempat posting pertama n byk benda gak la belajar kat sini.Tahun pertama kat sini, bujang..tahun kedua, im a wife then tahun ketiga, im a mother.hehe...

alhamdulillah...masih mengekalkan silaturahim dengan colleagues kat sana.sek nya kecik tp cikgu2 suma bersemangat.xderla cikgu yg kaki ngulor.n kerjasama pon baik..xpernah rasa stress pg kerja melainkan dengan anak2 murid jer la.

tp sek baru...ntahlah.
mcm hilang semangat.hilang fokus...hilang matlamat.

selalu tpatah semangat.jd malas...

summary

uish..been on pause long enough.

im not a writer.hence...no regular updates.

since my last post..

1)been on first family vacay to Langkawi.no pic coz im not into it really.maybe lepas ni kena suka amik2 gambar ni.baru ader kenangan.

2)still a teacher..haha

3)gave birth to my 2nd child
*a girl (ain zahirah binti kamal ariffin)
*DOB :5th march 2012
*now weight 3.5kg

see...not much has been going on.same old, same old.
hope i can write something uplifting every time i hit the keyboard but life is just..MONO.